It has taken years for me to heal from this…my son was off to University where I could no longer help but had to trust that all our years going to clinic had sunk into him and his care.
Of course now there was drinking and eating not eating to worry about… At some point you have to let go and trust. I got him through the tough first years. He is doing a great job on his own or I don’t hear about the incidents and accidents. He has taken charge of his own life and I am proud of how it all turned out.
I was inspired through the years by others with this same disease like my neighbour Jack. We would have heart to heart conversations about him having diabetes with insulin for years and how active and healthy he is. Jack would always ask how my son was doing. Knowing that he was well into his 70’s at that time gave me faith.
I had also met Darryl at my office who inspired me. Having had this disease for it was 17 years or so when I had met him. Darryl is now married with a family – he is healthy and happy. If I had only known then what I know now – I would not have spent so much time and energy worrying. Life is to be lived!!
What I had learned was my own superpowers…
They say that God doesn’t give you more than you can handle…and looking back – it is true. Although there were some days you could not imagine getting through – you do.
I realized my strengths in being able to take charge – in being able to be strong – to be resilient.
To be patient – with the interns, nurses, doctors, schools, my son and myself.
I learned I could do this and more
I am capable – you don’t have to do it right you just need to do it.
I am brave beyond even my own expectations.
I learned compassion again especially with myself first then with others.
I learned I was not alone and neither are you.